10-30-11
Not sure I can continue on like this. For 30 years I have taken all the crap that has been thrown at me and have prevailed. I have been strong and resilent. I AM TIRED. I do not want to be strong anymore. It sucks. I wish so many things. I wish not to HATE. I wish not be JEALOUS and envious of others who have those perfect 'Leave it to Beaver' lives. All I ever wanted was a family, a home, a life that was easy and not fillled with stress and discord. All I have gotten is SHIT. BUT then i HAVE TO TURN AROUND AND be friendly with these people with the perfection. Is that fair? NO Fucking Way