blindsided
I feel blindsided. This year is not my worry. It is next year. She has the power to do whatever she wants to with me. I am not a happy camper.
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panic
I had a terrible panic episode last nite. I wanted to talk to Randy sooooooooo bad. I was wishing I were dead or just someplace else. I wanted an escape. Too many people pulling me in too many directions. I HATE feeling like I am not in control. That is what it feels like. I can't control it and there is no telling what triggers one, especially a bad one. I feel like a truck has run over me and I wish I could just go to bed and sleep.
QOTD
Life is like a wave. Sometimes you have to dive into trouble to come out on the other side. This is a quote from the novel Distant Shores . Don't EVER forget who you are at the center. This is what will bring you through love, despair, heartbreak, and failure.
the day after
I am exhausted physically, emotionally and psychologically. Maybe this new med is not working out. Lots of panic and anxiety. Maybe it is the reality of how close it is to going back to school. FREAK OUT I just want to sleep.